2013 Retire, What's That?

On September 6th (just 2 days before my 33rd anniversary with CRE) I was called in and told I was being given a choice.  I could stay 4 or 5 months and apply for "MY" job when they combined the I/C and Payroll departments or take a severance package and leave at the end of the month.  I was shocked to say the least, I certainly was in no position financially to retire nor was I mentally or emotionally ready.  On October 4th (just 2 days after my 67th birthday) I walked out the door of CRE and do not plan on ever returning there even to visit.  I am sorry that after all those years I left so unhappy.
I am on my second week of "retirement" and I still have not come up with a plan for this 2nd half of my life as it is called.  I seem to keep somewhat busy but not enough to keep my mind occupied and that is hard on me.  When I do too much thinking I get depressed.
Steven will soon be 21 years old, hard to believe my grandchildren can be that old.  They should all still be little and LOVE their grandma!!!  Hunter and Braxton are juniors in high school, Garrett started junior high this year and Raegan will next year, no way in HELL can I be this old!  Baby Ray is finally growing and even looking somewhat chubby!!
Mom and Dad having some issues but overall they are hanging in there.  Mom calls everyday to check on me, don't know what she thinks I am doing but whatever.  Boyd still doing fine, I talk with him everyday and make sure he is ok.
I sold my Corvette the other day, sad to see it go but really do not need 3 cars and I had to make a choice.  The guy that bought it had been dickering with me on it for over 3 months......finally gave me what I wanted so that made it easier.  Maybe I will win the lottery someday and buy me a brand new one!!!  At least with winter coming on I won't have to worry about my third vehicle, my other two will fit in the garage.
I also had to sell my dog, Ike in September (not an easy month for me) as I could not keep him in yard at all.  He is down outside of Monticello where he can run and chase cows.  I got an update on him a week ago and he is doing good and bonding with the family.  That was another very hard decision for me.
Changes are a part of life for all of us, some are good and some are not.  Who can tell why things happen the way they do,  I sure can't.