Hello Family

Yes, it has been awhile but I just never seem to have much energy to sit in front of the computer. I try to do a little work in the basement here and there but only for about an hour at a time until my back starts hurting from sitting. In case some of you haven't seen me in a while, there is ALOT more of me to love! That little bugger never lets me get any sleep which is why it is after 2:00 a.m. and I am wide awake. I can't seem to get comfortable no matter what I try. Tylenol PM doesnt even help. I am going on my 3rd night in a row with very little sleep. So I get up and wander through the house, watch tv, unload the dishwasher, read on the couch and other various things that should not be happening after about 10pm.
The boys are all doing good. Braxton is finally over what ever sickness he had and they are all still enjoying football. Both Weston and Garrett's team made it to the playoffs and played their first game today. Westons team won 20-0 but sadly Garrett's team lost 21-14. They were all very sad because for a bunch of little scrawny boys, they put up one hell of a fight every week and really kicked butt in the regular season only losing 1 game. This means of course that they are out of the playoffs now but will take a week off and then begin practice again for the tournament that they are going to play in starting in November. They all really work hard and have not complained once over the past 3 months. I am very proud of them.
Dennis has been in town the last couple weeks and it has been nice to have someone else be the "Football Shuttle Bus".
I think I have finally convinced him to finish the room in the basement for Braxton next weekend so we can start moving kids around. I would like to get Brody's room set up and have everything ready. Then Tammy won't have to be doing it while I am at the hospital like she has done before! With me you never know when my body might decide to give birth!
I don't remember being this uncomfortable with the other 2 boys but isnt there a saying about mentally blocking it all out because if you remembered everything then you would never have more than 1 child? My stomach feels so tight and achy all the time. I can tell when I am having some small contractions because it gets even worse.
My right foot is always swollen and nothing seems to help. I usually have it elevated all night and it is still looks like I have a club foot in the morning!
I sure hope the fact that Brody never seems to sleep now means that he is going to be a very good sleeper when he comes out!
I should head back to bed AGAIN and see if that sleep thing will work this time!

SUCCESS/FAILURE ? MATURE/OLD?

I don't know where to classify myself anymore. I am 63 years old and don't know if I have been a failure or a success with my life. Sadly I am not even sure if I am mature or just plain old. I thought wisdom came with age---must have been a lie!!! Life is so difficult at times and all any of us want is some peace and happiness. It seems so unreachable most times that many people quit trying. I will always put one foot in front of the other and keep trying to find that peak. Grandpa Hanks never liked a whiner---no matter what the issue, we were told to "grab our boot straps, pull yourself up and get on with living." I have come to realize that it has to come from within---no one can give it to you. I enjoy my family and the times we have together. Being able to watch the grandkids grow up is such a blessing. The simple things are the most important-------"The rich man is not the one who has the most......but the one who needs the least." The rough times we are facing now should make us all realize that we don't need as much as we think----Time should be spent and money saved. Memories are all you have in the end and taking time is what creates them.